I am; Too kind, I over think, I over worry and I care to much.
But what for?
it does me no good in the end really...
I try to talk to people n cheer them up so I can cheer myself up and to feel needed n wanted.
But when my helps not needed or wanted, what good is it to try?
I feel like i didnt even try hard enough..

I use helping people like a cheap easy low dose depression med, but like all low doses it is only so strong and only last so long.
But when that small amount that I need, that I crave is taken away I freak.
I cant handle it.

Its gotten to the point where my self prescribed drug doesn't seem to work any more even when it is given to me.

Why make other people happy and give advise if i cant even take it myself.

But im trying.

one day I might have to take that dreaded trip to the doctors office or even psychiatrist and open up and be given and actual bottle of pills so i can move on, but till then Im going to stay strong.
Im going to keep taking the good with the bad and roll with it as best as I can.

Thats all i can do, thats all anyone can do.